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Last
night you were on my mind as you always are
Last night though, I did not whisper good night when I fell asleep
Again like every night I woke up about three AM thinking of only you
Once again I fought it but soon my eyes began to weep
It's
been almost two months now since I have held you in my arms
You would think my heart would have begun to heal inside
Maybe I would be able to laugh a little more
Maybe I thought by now I could have said goodbye
It's
not that I want to say the words or forget anything
I think somewhere I know; I just no longer want to cry
I don't want to pace my back yard at night wondering about you
I don't want to whisper I love you to the midnight sky
I
think… I hope at times you might wonder where I am
Or have you already forgotten any bond we shared
Was it easy for you because, I wasn't the one?
Or at times in your heart, like me, are you ever still scared?
I
knew I gave a lot; all that I wanted to give to you
Kissing me that first time, I never saw you take my heart
Now you're handing it back telling me to live again
Are you asking me to erase everything and make a brand new start?
If
you think for a moment I could forget and start again
Then it is over for us because you truly never knew me
What I thought I would change my life for, and did
Was it only my dream, the one dream for you and me?
I
told you "time will show how much I love you"
You answered "it won't because I don't love you"
You told me to go on with my life
Call it denial, but only time will show if your words were true
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